Do you ever feel like the stars are finally aligning in your life and you can see things clearly? I’m 37 years old now and slowly I’m beginning to see why I’ve been led down the path I’ve been led down. I always thought when I was younger that I would be some hot shot agent/manager/tv producer person by the time I was this age. I might have a few kids, I might not, life would be great. Instead I took a winding path that has led me from being an agents assistant, working on a fishing boat in Alaska, working at Domino’s Pizza, working in theatre for years, going to the top culinary school in the country to running kitchens, box office’s etc. This weekend I realized that all of these things have made me the person who I am. They’ve made me very resilient in dealing with stress, they’ve made me a multi-tasker. I’m not going to go into what I was working on this weekend but I think it could potentially be really exciting for me.
I’m trying to get better at listening to people when they tell me that what I do is amazing, because most of the time I don’t believe them or think it’s not a big deal. And I’m not saying this to be pompous, because I come from a place of no matter how hard you work it’s not good enough. I think it’s partially a pressure that I put on myself and maybe pressure that was put on me as a child. So I’m spending more time listening to other people. If they can praise me, why can’t I praise myself?
So now I’m back to reality and time to process everything that happened. I arrived home at 1:30am this morning and was awoken by the dog at 6:30 to go to the bathroom, so I’m sure I’ll be exhausted today! Thanks for listening to me ramble!