I feel a sudden sense of clarity in my life. Today is day number four without a drink. I’m not going to lie, I know it sounds a little silly, but it’s been hard. Last week I went on a binge of like 8 days where I had a drink. Prior to that I would take one day off of drinking, just to convince myself that I didn’t have a problem, and then pick it up again. I have kind of had to take myself away from the world a little bit to do this. A friend of mine asked me to go out to dinner with her family on Tuesday and I said ‘no’ because I was afraid of there would be too much drinking. I went to a comedy club last night in Hartford, Ct and refrained from drinking. Then we drove back and went to the bar at work, I had a diet coke and went home.
The hardest part was when it came around to Wednesday and it was time to go to my favorite bar, have a few drinks, eat dinner etc., I had no idea what to do. So I went to the grocery store, bought a steak, some corn and a salad and went home and ate. It was kind of nice!
Also, I got on the scale this morning and I had lost 3 lbs. Hey, it’s a start.