I feel like I’ve been bumming my readers out the past few times I’ve posted. Or maybe I’m just making that up? Well, here goes again, another bummer post, but not really. Yesterday was Christmas and it was the strangest Christmas that I’ve ever had. I didn’t go anywhere, didn’t see anyone and only contact with any other human being was on Facebook and a few text messages. I got no phone calls from my family, had nothing to open. It was just me and my doggie. I’m not going to lie, it was tough. And before I give my family a bum wrap, I didn’t call them either. This exile was of my choosing. I had plenty of invitations to go over to people’s houses but I thought I would prefer to stay home, read and be by myself. If I couldn’t be with my family I couldn’t think of a better person to spend the holiday with, me.
So I sat and read on my new Kindle Paperwhite that I had bought for myself. I read a book by Andy Cohen, it was fun, interesting, a nice read. I made myself my typical breakfast of sweet potatoes, onions, peppers, mushrooms, garlic topped with eggs and some bacon. I watched ‘The Holiday’ and feel asleep for a two hour nap waking just as the movie was ending.
I was depressed, sad, lonely but I dragged myself out of it. And to be completely honest I think my sadness, depression and loneliness is completely a function of the sugar an alcohol that I’ve been drinking. I was never as clear headed as when I was on The Whole 30 diet a few months ago and I have to get back to that. I have lots of plans for the new year, none of which I’m going to share in this post, but it is coming soon. What I learned most yesterday was that I am alone, and that’s ok. I have my friends, my family and I know they all love me but I have to do things for myself. See the thing is, I knew that I needed rest yesterday, which is why I stayed home. I listened to myself, which is something I have to do more often. I feel refreshed and ready to take on the new day!